What am I for?
What changes in you
You stop living on your own strength and find a purpose that puts everything else in order.
Phases: Основы · Возвращение
Risale-i Nur · twenty-two weeks
You were given faculties, and a job on this earth.
A mind, a heart, a will, the senses, an “I”. Most days they run on autopilot: work, phone, worry. This course is about how you actually work: how you relate to yourself, to the world around you, and to what happens to you. Get those right, and your faculties start working for your mission instead of against it.
Twenty-two weeks, one piece at a time.
You
The idea
The same faculty, turned two ways.
Nothing in you has to be killed off. Your powers are meant to be steered, not destroyed. Turned the wrong way they work against you; turned the right way they become what they were made for. The faculty stays the same. What changes is the way it is turned.
The same faculty, turned two ways.Turned in on itselfTurned toward what it was made for
The “I”
Неделя 7Turned in on itselfSwells like a thread that grows into a dragon, until nothing is left but “I”.
Turned toward what it was made forA mirror and a measuring line. Your small “mine” is how you begin to grasp what is His.
Turned in on itselfA strong horse that bolts, or one you try to shoot.
Turned toward what it was made forThe same horse, trained and ridden. Now it carries you.
The heart
Неделя 6Turned in on itselfPushed aside while the nafs grabs the wheel.
Turned toward what it was made forKing of the house, and the other residents fall into line.
The mind
Неделя 4Turned in on itselfReads the world as a house of mourning.
Turned toward what it was made forReads the same world as a house of remembrance.
The senses
Неделя 7Turned in on itself“How beautiful”, and the beauty stops at the thing.
Turned toward what it was made for“How beautifully made”, and the beauty points beyond it.
The will
Неделя 17Turned in on itselfBlames the past and makes excuses about the future.
Turned toward what it was made forAccepts the past as written, and answers for what comes next.
The course
Four relationships, one circle.
It opens with your mission, works through yourself, the world and what happens to you, and then comes back to the mission at the end.
YouWhat am I for?
What am I made of, and who is in charge?
What changes in you
You come to know your nature and your nafs, put the heart in charge, hold yourself to account without hating yourself, and keep the heart clean.
Phases: Познание себя · Очищение сердца
What am I looking at?
What changes in you
The world becomes a book you can read, and you become a mirror for the Names. Your small knowledge, mercy and power turn into measures that point beyond themselves.
Phases: Имена и зеркало
Why is this happening, and what is mine to do?
What changes in you
You learn to tell what is decreed from what is your responsibility, and your own thoughts from whispers. Then you see these ideas lived out under exile and pressure.
Phases: Кадар и васваса
The return
Same person, same goal. Now you can carry it.
In week 3 you write one sentence: what you are for. In week 21 you come back to it and rewrite it, deeper and more concrete. The goal has not changed. What has changed is what you bring to it.